To Super Mario Wiki's community

If you're reading this, it either means you followed the URL posted on my talk page, it was sent to you by someone, or you're the most needlessly aggressive AI scraper known to man.

I'm probably the last person anybody here wants to see here again, but I do think that enough time has passed that I want to at least try and ask for some form of atonement.

In March 2020, I received a ban from the MarioWiki discord, wiki, and presumably anything else associated with the community. I do not find this to be unwarranted. To be completely clear, the ban message is in part correct: I was in a discord community that was associated with far-right messaging/propaganda. This was released via a website that specifically doxxes individuals or groups for participating in these types of groups. My messages were, while generally still somewhat right-leaning, generally critical of those posting or were just mundane memes/sarcastic one-liner responses. Most of my messaging from around 2016 had slowed down in 2018 and nearly entirely had stopped by 2019. While in my earlier years, I was swiftly progressing down the alt-right pipeline. I will not downplay how the tradjectory of my life was playing out. 

I don't say this as an excuse or justification, but I do want to provide some context: At that point in my life, things were turbulent. On the verge of what would end up being homelessness, most of my existing friend and family bases had left me due to shifting political views. Then came the severe drug use. These only worsened with time, and the only people that ever really offered me any form of community was hard right pricks. Full of anger and nowhere to turn, it led to a more rampant shift in socio-political views. By 2020, there were admittedly few times that I would actually have been competely sober.

I said many hurtful, mean, cruel, or otherwise offensive things since I was a teenager. Every single one of them was wrong. I do not deny doing many harmful things. I apologize deeply for my behaviors and hope people can forgive me for what I did.

I've since gone to rehab and after getting much better jobs and communities, have done my best to shift to be a better person. I've done my best to foster safe and healthy communities, I've tried to fund a wide variety of charities, including Go! Rescue Pet Adoption and Doctors Without Borders among others. I've clung on to dead, dying, or smaller wikis and attempted to bring them back to life as best I can, and provide resources for all websites to improve content quality and user safety. Great strides have been taken to prevent copyright infringement of regular users' work. Problematic users are dealt with quickly and deliberately. I've tried to be as transparent about changes, posting, and social means as possible.

Despite still being actively in the wiki editing scene, especially through and around NIWA, I have always done my best to go out of my way to let people feel comfortable, whether thats through not joining either the regular or staff servers, avoiding conversations or activities when requested, and staying out of spaces when people are uncomfortable with my presence. I don't want people to not participate in a project they care about simply because I am there.

For clarity's sake, this isn't a request to be unbanned. I've accepted that this is probably never going to occur, and I am okay with it. I just would appreciate if people stopped referring to me as an actively-performing neo-nazi, even as late as 2025. Or at least cool it with the death threats. I have tried to change and leave any trace of that lifestyle far in the past and to evolve into something better. I can hope that in time, I can earn the forgiveness of those that I have wronged.

I'm always willing to give wiki help. Even if you don't want my association with it, just ask and I'll try and answer questions the best I can.